Peace, Love & Dirty Pretty Things

I’m trying my absolute hardest…

not to go insane! I know I shouldn’t keep complaining because, let’s face it, it doesn’t help at all. I feel like my head is going to explode or I’ll have an emotional breakdown. I’m really trying though! As hard as it was, I had to give myself a serious intervention last week because things were getting out of hand. I’m trying to be more relaxed and appreciate the things I have accomplished as opposed to worrying about the future. I figure that I should enjoy NOW since I’m unemployed and have time. I need to re-evaluate some things before I start applying again.I need to figure out what it is that I want because I know I have SO much to offer. I just need to find it within myself and hopefully channel some hidden strength while I’m at it.This time I really need to aim at one goal and do my best to avoid negative energy and my own bad thoughts that tend to creep up on me at random. I need to stay positive, enjoy life, and smile! Everything WILL get better. Operation FREELANCE is in full effect. Now to just find some inspiration….

Listening to: Lykke Li- Get Some

It’s been TOO long, my dear…

Since I last wrote or updated anything and for that, I’m sorry. It’s been a stressful few weeks for me with reality smacking me in the face and all. I’m currently waiting for my graduation info to come in the mail and looking for a job and not just any job, but “THE” job. I’ve been applying to SO many places and I haven’t gotten any responses and that makes me nervous/annoyed and makes me feel hopeless/helpless/like a loser! Everyone keeps telling me the same thing: “Things like this take time,” “It’s the economy,” “Just stay positive, you’ll find a good one.” Uhh no, I want a job now because I want to get my own place, travel, afford fabulous things and help people. I know I’m getting it together but come on, someone hire me! I’ll do a good job, I promise.

Listening to: Sting- Desert Rose